It’s just one of those things that make me go…Hmmmm!

I’ve been feeling kind of mopey the past couple of days. No I’m not suffering from acute depression from which I haven’t got the will to do something about…I’m just mopey, is all.

I guess I have mixed feelings about backing away from a six-figured job. It’s tough to do. Also, I feel a bit like I’ve let a few people down. They tell me I haven’t but I still feel that way.

However, it’s such a crappy job that I really can’t honestly keep up the pretense.

Yesterday, as I walked into the office, the entire computer system that stores all of our programming had crashed. The place was in a panic. Meanwhile, the people who could fix the problem were on the case. They were doing all they could. But certain higher ups think that if you act like a demented prima donna, things will happen faster.

That’s just a tiny example of what it’s like around there.

I can’t wait to get my ass back to South America where people are real.

My dear sweet friend, Blu, is getting screwed over by someone on the Internet…again! If there’s anyone that deserves that kind of treatment less than her, I don’t know who it is. I don’t know the details but I wish people would stop sucking the life from her.

It gets me thinking of what a deceptive place the web is. We have these personae that we try to project. I try to be as honest as I can but I’m not sure how I’m being interpreted. Maybe what I think I project isn’t what’s getting out there.

I trust my Blu implicitly, and my VSIS too, but not much else. People say things they don’t mean, or maybe they think they mean it, but they don’t, really. In the end, it’s too easy to turn it off.

Not making much sense, eh?

Luvofmylife is going to a conference in Montreal this weekend. That means I won’t see her ‘til Friday the 7th of February. We didn’t even get much time together this past weekend. So, I already miss her terribly. I guess I’ll just go cuddle the little stuffed bear she bought for my apartment.

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